9th Entry-January 29th, 2009 -- How much longer til we get there

You can tell things have a gotten a little better as I am not listing every little task I have to do in my blog to remember however, today is one of those days when you think, "how much longer til we get there?" This turns out to be one of these days where my whole current situation when I think about it and work thru is overwhelming.

Today started with my Internist in the morning. I updated the doctor on everything that has happened in the last month. I was getting exhausted just listening to myself. There turned out to be an issue with my Cardio that needed followup and I found out I have Anemia, I walked into the waiting room where my Mom was waiting for me and I could tell she was getting tired also. 4 hours left today though.

SLP was testing by memorizing words being said forwards and saying backwards, figuring out patterns and puzzles, and doing concentration execises. During one of the tests I asked about the rules but it was standardized testing so you cannot explaining anything besides what you are told. In true Brian Primack form, I got frustrated and snapped at the therapist. The test rules turned out not to be too bad. I did figure out, the problem was I was just more putting more effort into concentrating when I was tired.

After SLP was PT. It was a godsend. You just have to push yourself physically which never has been an issue for me. Just breath deep and cycle, walk, twist, lunge or stretch enough to get those endorphins going. I always feel like I can make progress in PT which I am. Without PT today I would not have made it thru OT.

OT was not as bad after PT. Alot of memory involving shapes, faces and repeating tasks. This was an extended evaluation from the session before so I asked how I am doing? She said you are lucky where you are based on what happened to you and with therapy work you can improve.

I thought that's it. I have been asking my self how much longer til I get better. It's work just in a different form. The next time someone asks me what are you going back to work my answer could be when I can shake this rehab job. Today is one of those days where you just can't see the big picture. It happens to everyone.

That's it for tonight,


Brian